The Summer Camp

I'm back from the summer camp, and I still hadn't decided my final topic. Anyways, I would like to share something about my camp, and maybe I could grab some inspirations.

The reason I went to this camp was wholly because of a guy I had a crush on.
I'll skip the details and get to the point.

There, I met a girl in my team, which is relatively an inner girl in my presence.
I could manage almost every thing on my own, but the girl was like seeking help from others.
I took care of many things for her, for she is one year younger than me; and in the other aspect, this way she wouldn't have to bother the guy I like.
However, the guy still took much care of her, way more than me. I felt jealous. He was supposed to be better to me! (That's another story to tell.)

This made me ponder over a point: Should a girl be strong and capable or delicate and powerless?
I don't want to bother the guy so I tried my best to do everything myself; I thought he would feel more relaxed and be happy about that.
And he did seem happy, but happy that he could help that girl more! (Okay, this may be just what I think, but it really upset me.)

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Leave the wonder above aside, I think I've learned more about myself from the camp.

#1
I'm quite an extrovert.
Back from the camp, when I was recollecting about the 6 days, I figured out that I was nearly the wildest girl in the whole camp.
I thought of this as "being myself", maybe I really was, however, not everything is good when "being myself".
There are advantages and disadvantages on this point.
Mom always tells me to astringe myself.
Maybe I was a bit too out-going?
And that may scare someone away...

#2
I've always been a girl that loves to smile and laugh.
I resign myself to a happy person and can also bring others some happiness.
That's what I love to be, and now I learned how powerful smiling could be.

It's impossible for you to know everyone in the camp, but I smile to people I know belong to our camp, especially to girls.
On the last day, there was a time for us to write some words to anyone you'd like to.
Here I received some words like this:
Though I didn't have much contact with you, but you smile all the time. So cute. ♥

This made me so proud.
A smile won't be efficacious all the time, but it does most of the time.
It brings you more friends and less enemies.
And you're happy.